I'm a very independent and free-spirited girl so my parents' protectiveness really grated on me. I never had a full-on teen rebellion against them but I often argue with them. Honor thy father and mother was really, really hard for me to do but I tried and truthfully, I'm still trying until now. Anyway, my only consolation during my high school years was that I'll soon be going away to college and finally, FREEDOM! :) I should have known they won't allow me to leave our hometown to go to a college in our country's capital city (which was my lifelong dream!). During the application process (third year HS), they forced me to write our hometown city in the campus of choice question. I did it with a very heavy heart, and cried to the Lord afterwards about my longings to be independent and be my own woman. I asked God: I followed my parents all my life, when will I get to live my own life?
But the Lord has no answer for me in the next few weeks. I gradually settled into a weary acceptance of my fate: that I will live forever with my parents and never experience living on my own. My only thought was, "Lord, help me survive." Haha! I know it sounds dire but when you're a teen hungering for independence, every rule set by your parents just triggers your rebelliousness (talking back, secret hangouts, etc). Thankfully, I was brought up properly and I knew it was bad to rebel; and that children should always honor their father and mother no matter what. Months after I applied for the hometown college, a letter came~ I WAS IN! I was really thankful that the Lord blessed me (less than 10% are accepted in that college) and then an idea came: the school campus was far from our home so maybe I can have a bit of independence time there :) I rejoiced that the Lord DOES give the desires of your heart even though it's a bit different than what you want!
"Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him." (Psalm 37:5-7a, NIV)
P.S. This is the oldest faith post written in my head some 20 years ago. I'm so thrilled to be able to finally write it down "on paper" (blogged, to be more accurate, hehe) and share it with the world. And yes, there's more parts coming! This is just Part 1, the beginning of everything.